Tuesday, March 17, 2026

 

I was just a child.

 

I was just a child.

Why do my memories seem just seconds old when they are years ago?

The murmur of angry voices floods my room, swirling, mixing into the darkest hidden shadows, huge, they find my secret hiding places. I hide, but they pierce my soul, I hear… oh, I hear.

This is a place I dread; I’ve been here many times before. I press my ears with my hands and bedding to stop the sounds.

I pull my clothing tight, seal my ears with my little hands, but the storm is rising before me overwhelming; no one can stop the thunder. 

Dark, boiling clouds shut out any light, any hope.

A clap of thunder loud as a hand strikes a face, a deep thud, like tree limbs hitting the ground, a body blow, the rush of air as lungs collapse from another blow.  Tinkling shards of glass, Mother’s tears.

Doors slamming like the boom of thunder that shakes the house.  The roar of the engine fades in the distance. 

“I was just a child.”

From the Ramblings

t

 Snow ball Earth

The Atlantic Meridional Overturning Circulation (AMOC) is a major system of ocean currents in the Atlantic that acts as a giant conveyor belt, moving warm, salty surface water from the tropics to the North Atlantic and returning cold, deep water southward. It regulates the global climate, especially in Europe, by transporting heat and nutrients. 

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The sun would be setting in just a few minutes, and the temperature would drop quickly; it would be deadly for anyone on the surface.

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In 2027, the climate doom mongers were stone-cold wrong. (if you’ll forgive my pun).  We’d had a century-plus of Earth warming, a tenth of a degree here, another in a few years.  They all claimed it was all man-made, and they did everything they could to clamp down on every economy in the World to slow further industrialization: slow or stop the warming was the mantra of the times.  Some even fought to install large sun-screens in space to throw shadows on the Earth. 

In the background, shunned by most, shouted down by others, were a few scientists who were telling of a different future.  They were right.

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September 2027, Granite, Oregon.  We’d moved our makeshift laboratory to Granite because it had a feature that we felt would save us if our predictions were correct: the Granite silver mine.  The mine was dug in the late 1800’s straight into the mountains' solid rock.  The mine entrance started from a small parking lot ringed on three sides by tilling piles, then an iron gate and straight into the mountain for a good 30 yards, then a “Y” either to the right or left, the mine shafts continuing for hundreds of yards, with many offshoots.    

The main shaft was eight feet tall, six feet wide, and narrowed slightly at the Y.   The left shaft ran about 40 feet further on, ending in a large cavern room that had been used as a separation site for the ore.  It was surprisingly large, flat as a pancake, 40’ by 80’, and with a ceiling at about 15’.  It was huge and dry.

The right shaft went on for 100’s of yards with small spaces cut out on both sides as they chased small and large pockets or rich ore, making perfect areas for storage of foodstuffs, supplies of all kinds, and firewood storage for heating the living area. Beyond those shafts, it went on for hundreds of yards in many directions.

The entrance to the mine has a heavy iron gate, rusty but still strong, which closes off the mine to visitors.   A few feet down from the entrance gate, we installed a solid steel insulated door to seal the mine from the weather and the wind that blows through the mine from the fresh air shafts cut up and through the mountain.  It made for a solid home and work area for the team.

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Our initial models showed both the Pacific and the Atlantic Oceans cooling, whereas all accepted models showed the opposite;  this included the Earth's elliptical orbit, tilt obliquity, the Milankovitch cycle, and thousands of hours studying climate data since records were kept.  

What we found was terrifying. 

Our final models showed that the Oceans would cool as much as 5 degrees before the summer of 2028, just months away; we were not going to come out of this winter, everything above the 45th parallel would be in a deep freeze by fall.  Once the rapid cooling started, it would be in a runaway cooling pattern, and the Earth would be a snowball planet in under 18 months.

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The first thing we did after poring over our data was to plan for the worst.  The first semi pulled up to the mine and had to back up, twisting and turning to get close to the entrance of the mine; at least the parking area was flat.  He finally got as close as he could within the small parking lot and the mountains of tillings.  Without a forklift, we hand-carried and stacked boxes of supplies deep in the right shaft of the complex.  For the next few deliveries, we instructed them to have power dollies, and that helped to fill every square inch with months or years of supplies. Next, we filled one large caveran with water bottles and five-gallon jugs of water.   Another cavern cut into the rock, we stacked gallons of unleaded fuel and propane to run generators and food prep.   The mine was stocked as full as we thought we’d need.  The future would tell.

At the last moment, just a few short weeks ago, we decided to go all-in debt and order three more semi-trucks full of long-lasting food stores.  Deeper in the mine, we stacked four full areas full of foodstuffs and built doors to close them in, protecting the cold storage the mine provided.  Our funds were fully exhausted, and we had no way of covering the expense.  We’d have to stall for our future funding to come in, fully knowing that the freeze was coming sooner.

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During this time, we had a horrible burden of knowing that the local population who was supplying us would be without help as the coming snowball earth came for us all.  We did our best to warn them of the coming doom, which they ignored with pride.  We offered to help them and bring them into our home without even one taking us up on the offer.  We begged them to come in now, before the freeze set in, before we’d have to seal the mine.  They refused…  It wasn’t pride, it was the legacy news that spun a picture of a short-term cool down, supported by all the bought and paid for ecologists of the government; it was a doom loop we could not break.

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December 2027, Winter has arrived and is not leaving.

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The first snow came on exactly the day it normally did.  We watched the weather and closed the mine shaft on December 21st as the snow level reached five feet and was piling on by the hour.  The closed-circuit TV showed snow falling at a high rate of five inches an hour without stopping. 

To our surprise, our closed-circuit TV showed a small 4x4 pulling up right up to the mine entrance with a female and three small children in the picture.  We broke open the mine, pushing snow to the side, and brought them inside. 

Jan and the three children made a great addition to our family.  We built them a small home on the left side of a large area of the great room and welcomed them to our family.  The next day, the closed-circuit TV showed that the vehicle was under four feet of snow and iced in.

 

Snowball Earth.

 

Our predictions were spot on, which brought tears to all our eyes. 

We have saved ourselves for the time being.  We have enough supplies to last a few years if we are very careful with usage.  January’s snow must have ended even the most prepared, as the snow dumped to twenty feet deep in our area.  Our monitors showed huge areas under unbelievable layers of heavy snow, which would crush most buildings.  We could only pray for those and hope they’d find a way to our home.  None came…

Spring 2028.

May had sprung and we are hopeful that some type of break has happened.  Our instruments show the outside temperature is 10 degrees with heavy winds and blowing snow.  We have used just 5 percent of our supplies over the last winter.  Percentages show we should be able to withstand the next 15 years without a new supply.  We can only hope…

Time will tell…

God’s speed.

The Rambings.

t


Taum Lee, Three, Pay Back.

 

Taum Lee.

Three

Pay back.

The safe house sat in a nondescript neighborhood of modestly priced homes.  Mostly occupied by middle-income families with kids, dogs, and a few chicken coops thrown in.  Basketball hoops every two or three houses faced the street; it's a peaceful, quiet place to raise a family.

2238 NE Brooks sat mid-street, on a slight dip from front to back, making the rear of the house a couple of feet higher than the front.  The builder had thrown in a modest-sized wood deck with railings above the lawn by three steps.  The house had three bedrooms with a double garage, a small formal front room, and a small family room in the rear opening out onto the deck through French-style doors.

The garage took up the right side of the house, and the three bedrooms, one large bath, finished the left side.    A six-foot wood privacy fence started with a gate at the garage to the right, surrounded the small backyard, ending with a second gate on the far left at the house's left corner.

Taum Lee had been living in this Agency home now for nearly six weeks.  He was between jobs and enjoying some free time.  This evening, he had a new girlfriend over and had cooked a wonderful dinner with salad, fried rice, shrimp, along with a nice light white wine.  Amber had rained compliments over the meal.  They sat cozily on the couch, chatting in the family room after the dishes were done, the dishwasher humming in the background.

Leaning over quickly, Lee pressed his left hand over her mouth, his right hand giving her the quiet sign; her eyes were instantly huge with shock.  Pulling his hand from her lips, he pointed sharply at the floor, giving the urgent, “now” motion.  She slid to the floor without a sound.  Reaching under the coffee table, he pulled out a huge black pistol.  Dropping to a sitting position, sandwiched between the couch and the coffee table, putting himself between her and the French doors as they exploded inwards, glass and splintered wood hitting the far wall. 

The first through the door was waving his rifle, trying to find a target.  Taum Lee nearly yelled, “Armor,” as they had during years of training. He saw that the man was covered head to toe in body armor.  

The man was wearing a black bump helmet rather than the normal ballistic helmet most Police and Armed Forces wear.  He knew this was a sign of special combat teams who wore bump helmets rather than ballistic helmets because, against large caliber weapons, ballistic helmets were useless and heavy.

Taum Lee placed one round in the man’s left temple, causing him to pull the rifle's trigger, emptying all 20 rounds, piercing the flooring, through the dividing wall into the formal living room, blowing out the front window and front door, spraying splintered wood and glass into the front lawn. 

The second man through the door ran straight into the back of the lead man as the round hit.  This told Lee that this team had not worked together before this job, as the second man should have passed to the right of the first man, keeping him from running into or tripping over the first man’s feet.  Hitting the dead man, it stopped him with nowhere to go.  Lee's shot hit the man, leaving a perfect round hole in his left ear, straight through his head, adding to the blood painting as it slowly ran down the wall.  Both hit the hardwood floor together.  Number three slid to a stop just inside the blown-out French door, a surprised look on his face.  As he brought his rifle up, Taum Lee shot him twice in the face.  As he crumpled to the floor, he tangled in the window curtain, ripping it off the wall. 

Jumping to his feet, Lee watched as number four turned from the doorway and attempted to flee across the deck.  Taum Lee’s last two rounds caught the fleeing gunman in the lower neck and high in the forehead, flipping him off the deck, landing in the mowed grass below.

Deafened by nearly 30 gunshots in a small area, it took Lee a couple of seconds to realize the high-pitched sound was Amber screaming to his right.   Grabbing her up off the floor, he carried her to the car in the garage and sat her in the passenger seat.   As gently as he could, “It’s all right, you're safe, I’ll be right back, I’ll get you out of here!”   He disappeared back into the house.

Lee grabbed his bag, which he’d been living out of, and his go bag in seconds.  Lastly, throwing off the mattress to the bed, he pulled the rifle case, slinging it over his shoulder.

Running through the house, he threw the bags in the back seat.  “Get down, this is going to be a rough ride!”

Engine roaring to life, he plowed backwards through the garage door, leaving parts of the garage door spread down the driveway into the street.  Hitting the brakes, he could hear sirens in the distance.  Lee could see that the front window of the house directly across the street was shattered from one of the rounds. 

Neighbors were standing in front doors, mouths agape, watching the car disappear down the street.

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In the car, making a number of turns and reversing direction, he felt it was safe to head to Amber's apartment.

Lee drove Amber to her front door and pulled her from the car, having to help her to the door.  No words were going to help, so he just said, “Goodbye.”

As he dropped the car into gear, his phone rang.   “Ah Taum, I see you are still with us, what a shame.”

“Will, if it isn’t Grigoriy Rostislav, my friend, how nice to hear from you.  I take it my visitors were of your hire.”

“They professed a much higher level of expertise than they apparently showed.  I hope it wasn’t too much of an inconvenience.”

“Not at all, I hope we will be seeing each other shortly, it’s something I’ve been looking forward to.”

“As I have, old friend.”

The call ended with a click.

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At the next bridge, Lee rolled down the window and threw the phone over the rail into the river.  He’d pick up a burner phone in the next day or two.

On Wednesday, the 22nd, Lee made the call into the “Office”.  Five minutes of verification, he was finally on the phone with his unpopular boss, Theodore Spencer.

“Mister Lee, nice to hear from you.  We got left with a rather large mess, didn’t we?  It’s been a scramble to get it all cleaned up, and the locals are in an uproar that just isn’t quieting down quickly.”

“I had a little run-in with my old friend Grigoriy Rostislav hired people.  They didn’t leave me with much of a choice but to find another place to live.”

“And the reason it took you six or seven days to be in contact with us?” “We really don’t like surprises, especially like this one!”

“We’re compromised.  They have someone inside the organization giving out information, or our computers have been hacked.  There’s no other way they could have found me.”  “I’ll be moving from where I’m at and dumping this phone as soon as we are done here.”

“Okay, let me run this down. Give me a few days.  Make contact via a safe computer or one you can dump.  I’ll send a zip file of what I’ve found and any information I can get about Grigoriy Rostislav that’s recent.”

The phone clicked dead in his ear.

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Dell 15” laptop in hand, Lee signed into the agency's computer banks.  He found the promised zip drive and downloaded it, and immediately signed off.  They’d found the leak, and it was terminated, which brought a smile to Lee’s face; plugged, terminated, ended, and maybe just signed off—small chuckle.

Buried deep in code was an urgent job.  Lee started packing.

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The landing in Denver, as normal, was rough; the wing stabilizers were working hard, flapping like bird wings trying to control the radical bounce of the plane through the vortices of the swirling wind. 

Snow was forecast, the first of the season, and they promised it was going to be a doozy.  Flakes were coming down, blowing in the wind. 

The taxi took the shortest route, Pena Blvd to I-70 to I-25, then a few side streets, dropping him off at the Crawford Hotel on Wynkoop Street.  The street was nearly deserted, with three inches of snow and stacking up fast.  From the curb to the double doors was a blanket of blowing snow that followed Lee into the Hotel lobby.

The Crawford is from a different era, with a huge reception area, gilded staircases, and chandeliers.  Rooms are large with overstuffed furniture, a step back into the twenties.

Lee picked a suite along with the special offer of in-room dining.  Plush, no, opulent came to mind.

 Dinner came at exactly 5:30 pm as he had ordered.  Prime rib rare, all the little extras, and a bottle of Pinot Noir.  Perfection, a well-run business deserving of a large tip.

An hour later, a soft knock at the door.  Through the peephole stood a man with a rectangular box riding on a four-wheeled stainless-steel cart.

No words were exchanged, just a modest tip and the box placed on the floor just inside the hotel room's door.

Grabbing a fresh glass of wine, Lee split the box, dumping the supplied tools on the carpet. He got to work.

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The target sat one table away from the large window of the Café, sipping coffee and reading what looked like a manual.  One foot further into the Café and he would have been hidden behind the café’s name on the big window.

Lee pushed the scope's magnification up to 20 power.  A little higher and he’d be able to read the text.  The crosshairs settled four inches above the target's head, no bounce, no movement side to side.  Lee slowly squeezed the trigger, knowing that the Café window would be a quarter-inch pane, deflecting the bullet eight inches lower than he was aiming.

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With the heavy snow, grabbing a taxi would be hard if not impossible; the downtown streets were just now getting plowed, so Lee walked the four blocks back to the Hotel.  The sirens screamed in the background.

Everyone in the lobby looked up when the double doors opened.  Lee walked to the front desk. “What’s all the excitement about?”

“There’s been a shooting downtown, the news is calling it an assassination.  They are saying an Iranian nuclear engineer was killed.  They think Israel did it!”

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One thing Lee knew, America’s law enforcement would turn every stone over looking for the shooter.  Lee packed his bag and called for a taxi to pick him up at a coffee shop a block from the Hotel in half an hour.   Taking the back door, Lee left the Hotel.  He timed it so he only waited five minutes to be picked up at the front door of the coffee shop.  He had the taxi take him south a dozen blocks.  He paid the driver and walked two blocks, hailing another taxi, taking him to the nearest rental car company.  Hitting I25 south to Colorado Springs and the airport.

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JFK was unusually quiet, almost eerie, and the staff looked bored.  He boarded flight UT1522 and was handed a full glass of Pinot Noir within a couple of minutes of hitting his seat in first-class, the steward openly flirting with him; this was going to be a nice flight.

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The landing was smooth, and taxiing was relatively short at the Mohammed V International Airport, Casablanca, Morocco.  A major airport for the region, it was a short walk to his next flight to N'Djamena International Airport, Chad.

Totally exhausted, he checked into Hotel La Tchadienne, formally known as Novotel,  N’Djamena, Chad.  Concrete with steel railings, the Hotel had zero appeal, but surprisingly, the large picture window of his room was filled with the view of the Grand Mosque, just east towards the City center, the view making him remember his short stay in Libya during the Civil War, ending Gaddafi’s reign.  To the south, the Chari River. 

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Meeting at 10 pm Chad time, Lee caught a ride to the southern part of the city, the Avenue du General Kerim Nasour was heavy with traffic at that hour.   Stopping just a block away from the Yemeni Restaurant, Lee walked the short distance, checking for surveillance.  Entering the restaurant, Lee spotted two tables towards the back on each side of the aisle with three bodyguards each looking at him as he entered the front door.  Lee asked the first man standing, “Sayid Yuad, min fadlika, 'iinah yantaziruni.” (“Mister Yuad, please, he is expecting me”.) 

With a nod, the man took Lee down a narrow hallway ending in a heavy, solid wood door. With a quiet knock, the door opened into a large office area, the walls covered in ancient artwork, and an exact copy of the hominin skull sat on the large desk.  Mr. Yuad sat behind a large desk, making him appear smaller than he actually was.  Standing close behind Mr. Yuad were two large jet-black men and two matching caught Lee as he entered the room.  Both carefully searched Lee, making sure he carried no weapons.  Lee instantly recognized the four as Sudanese special forces, the equivalent of Delta Force in the U.S. They stood between Mr. Yuad and Lee, leaving just a narrow window between Yuad and Lee.  Yuad was taking no chances.

Mr. Lee, I have a dossier that is very important to your people. We have come to a value, a sum if you’d like for it, if it is of interest.

“I’d like to see it if I may, I’ve been instructed to purchase it in the full sum if it is ethnic.”

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Lee scanned the document and was clearly shocked.

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The N'Djamena International Airport was nearly empty as Lee caught the first available flight out, regardless of the destination.  His secure cell phone was glued to his head as he read the dossier to his handler.  World War III had already started.

From the Ramblings.

t